One of the folks that work at the charter school we belong to commented on Clover’s manner of speech and cognition. They told Susan e might be a technical writer when Clover grows up.
Parental flattery aside, it was based on how specific to detail Clover is, how it is really important to say things in a specific way.
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that knocked me over. I mean, I’ve always joked that Clover is my grand experiment in human design, but this observation made me realize the reason I speak the way I do is because my childhood didn’t make sense.
As in, the world itself just seemed cruel and barbaric, and I was traumatized by the actions of the adults surrounding me. They were all dreadfully ignorant, emotionally immature, and violent. I began worshiping knowledge (as in, making it my “religion”) because it was the only way out of that intellectual prison; if I couldn’t think my way out, there certainly wasn’t a backup plan.
It is a joke with me, that I have
verbosity cranked all the way up. I talk a lot. I type a lot. I think a lot. So when I talk, I want it to be heard, and I don’t want to introduce confusion, since we are so easily confused as it is.
I’m a little worried. I mean, if you talked to Clover for 1 minutes, you’d see I was twisting myself up for nothing; that kid is as well-adjusted as anyone I’ve seen.
But there are definite parts of eir personality that are fed by my neurosis (and I am not even looking out for most of Susan’s, and who knows about all these new friends Clover is making, bringing along their parents’ baggage!). For instance, I don’t like kids playing in a kitchen. My own experiences are filled with accidents involving things only found in kitchens, specifically knives and fire. Even as I admit this I am on the fence, because seriously, who needs to deal with flame and blade?! But I know I’ve made Clover a little bit afraid, and I am not sure that is the best our species can do.
It may be the best I can do. Hmmm.
So if my default behavior is being fed by pain, what can I expect from it being processed without that context?
I don’t know, maybe it just makes good technical writers…